thousands and millions things to do...

blogging from bi's place..the comp is so freaking lag..god...this weekend we just spend most of the time stayng at home..no money to spend..so best just stay at home rite...screwed up things like usual again last nite..god whats wrong we me..it seems that i'm very good at screwin things up..everything's been going on for so well and then here i goes again..spoil everything single effort that i've put...sometimes i feel neglected ..like the other day...she couldnt finish up her assignment and everyone's helping her do it...i forgotten why i ddnt help out..guessed it as that i thought she ought to do it all herself coz she's the one that kept delaying it...i dunno whats wrong with me coz i just gets very sensitive over small lil tiny things..i dunno what i wnt..so many things awaits me..and i seriously just dont have enough time to do every single thing that lays infront of me...my sleeping time all went wrong..i'm having sleeping difficulties...i couldnt play my piano and violin well...there's nothing i can do well except for sleeping...whats wrong with me lately..i'm desperately in the need for a break...i feel left out, i think i suck at every single thing that i lay my hands on...can the god pls send me an angel to guide me thru this tough path that i'm going thru now??i seriously dunno how much longer i could hold on to u know??i'm breaking down fast...