Faithful-ness

sudden pang of sadness..thought of the things i read last nite...it was kinda awkward having my fren beside me when i was reading his blog..all that happened lately nobody knew of it til last nite...i went to see his frenster..and i found out lots of pretty gals account in his account..i asked him before..he said he didnt know all of them and they added him..but i went into his account..i saw that he added lots of pretty gals there...now i dunno whether i should trust him or not..guys are very clever beings that will certainly cheat on theri gf...i just feel hurt at this moment..i dunno how much longer we could last...he used to be so selfless last time..but now that i've read his blog..its good to know that he has learn to not to be so selfless anymore..but it seems to me that he care less towards me and stuff bout me..sometimes i seriously have no clue on what he's thinking coz he just wont tell me anything..even if he tell me..i just dunno whether izit true or not..losses faith losses all...if i start to not trust him anymore..everything will change...i'm the kind of person that cant hide my feelings towards other people..i'll spill out everything thats inside of me...i;m having all sorts of emotions now..all awkward emotions...in a same time..i feel guilty for the way i treated him last time, i feel hurt and betrayed by what he spill out in his blog, i'm confused on whether should i just pretend that i dunno nothing bout it..just go on with the flow..should i just ignore it???maybe i should...i'm trully hurt now...