Everything just fell apart..

everythung just fell apart..as i've expected..now we're holding on to an empty shell which used to contain all of our love,trust, faith and all...in just less than one day...everything just shattered like that...i dunno is that beoz he already made up his mind to not be himself anymore or what...i'm scared and alone in this path that i'm going to take..but i'm not going to quit just like that..coz i wanna change to become a better person for myself, for him and also for my frens.today is just the perfect day for me to think bout what should i do and all and also to catch up with my sleep...i ended up crying for things that i've done and how i've hurt him all this while...then i went back to my sleep..hoping that everything will be normal again..but when i woke up again...nothing has changed..i kept crying and crying...let the music heal my soul..i'm nothing now but a broken and empty soul...he said he didnt want me to change coz he's already scared of all the changes...he just want us to forget bout everything that had happened and just get on with everything like normal...but sorry dear..thats something i cant do..coz i've promise myself not to run away from things that need to be solve this time..i dont wanna hurt you anymore coz i know i cant loose u...i dont like the current self...i just want to make ur happy...its time for me to sacrifice something to make u happy instead of the other way round...i know u get fed up at times of my attitude towards u..but yet u managed to be so patient with me..that i thank you alot..and also my frens..i know i can be really hard to handle at times...but you guys just keep compromis with me..i wont learn that way u know..its time for me to grow up and deal with what i had to since long time ago...this is a long path but i'm going to walk it with all the courage and bravery that i've found in me...just gie me some time..i promise i will make a difference for everyone of you...promise...