Finally

finally,got a chance to let go of all my emotions..this is a place i'm craving for since long time ago...a place just for me let go of every frustrations,disapointments,anger and etc...life has been kinda sucked lately...everything unfortunate just happened..and all of them just happened now..at the same time..should i consider myself as unlucky??as if i care much bout that..bottom line is my life is all fucked up...ppl around me are all fucked up by me...even the happiest person on earth has a bad moment..sometimes it makes me wonder..how do they actually stay happy all the time???i crave for perfect stuff..but its that flaw that makes me who i am..it that that make me special,different from other ppl...i'm not a person who is well-tempered..i can be too hot to handle at times only to certain ppl..not that i didnt try to control myself..i've put in much effort on that issue..sometimes things just wanna burst out from their shell...so there goes..

got so many things to worry bout now...the dress for annual concert,my studies,my money,the stupid government loan,wtf to those dark skin ppl..we pay taxes to actually rare them...fuck them la..this country is so hopeless...if it wasnt for my family couldnt afford to send me overseas..i would have already somewhere out there studying and not returning to this hopeless country anymore..to tell u the truth i'm kinda ashame to admit that i'm a citizen of this country..coz the ppl here are the most pathetic human beings around...bribery and all..even the attitude they have are just so pathetic...losers to the max..having a pricipal that treat us like we're so rich and just to buy a dress that will coz us around 200bucks..that will only get to wear once for the concert, some pathetic losers that staying in block b that just keep staring at me and kept giggling among themselves...as if with their pathetic modified satria they are so cool...i swear to god that if last nite i had something hard on my hand,i would already threw it to that stupid fucking car...if they wanna fight..come la..u think i will be scared of u just because u have two guys???pls la fucking losers..just get on with ur life la..if it wasnt for me to think that it might be my fren that time i wouldnt even look at u okay..i know what ur thinking okay...u must be thinkin that i was so desperate for guys...pls..that was the last thing i ever need now okay???just get ur filthy eyes of me and stop giggling...wtf u have to laugh like that..fuck them man..

as if my life havent sucked enough...