People happy = my happiness???

its been 2 months without gettin any mojor breakdowns and unsatisfying and unhappy moments...at least thats for a change...well too bad it didnt lasted as long as i wanted it to be...i just came back from bf's place..sat down infront of my comp...thinking nothing...suddenly it hit me hard that i sorta forgotten what happiness feels like..i mean happy as in the things i do to make myself happy rather than thngs i did to please any other people around me except for myself...and the worse part..i cant even remember when was the last time i felt that i was trully happy and glad that i'm on this piece of the earth...damn...went for bbq last nite at fren's house..turned out that i found out something that i wish i didnt knew...but came to think of it...seriously y do i take it so seriously??i mean the damages i did to her was 0 effect to her..although i know rumaging thru her stuff is not the rite thing to do in the 1st place.and i dunno why on earth i spilled it out to her...as i remembered i kinda glanced that she kept the C thing in her drawer..and during the Moment..we needed it so i went rumaging..and of coz i found out that she was really mad at what i did...not to mention that all the damages she did to my laptop...damages which wont fade and just stays there until u change a new laptop...so thats a fair case...rite now i seriously duno give a shit to what they think anymore..why should i just keep making them happy??making my bf happy is becoz i'm want him to be happy and becoz i love him alot...he's my priority compared to that bunch of unworthy frens...which one of them actually told me this.."never trust anyone but urself...not even ur closest fren"...now kinda think bout it...it made so much sense now compared to last time...why should i give a damn to their happiness??why must i please them??it took me only 2 days to see their true colors...3 of 'em,..one which i already dont give a damn to...another one i just found out the true colors of her when i was having class with her...her words were like sharp swords stabbing thru my all over...and the other one which i considered the closest one..actually gets mad coz i needed her help..well..so much for being so nice frens to me ya people..well...at least i'm far better than her..because she was this cheap lady that hoped that sex can make that man return to her...in ur dreams biatch...she's got money,looks,boobs, and everything a girl wanted...so??now come to think of it...i'm far better than her..coz her reputation is not that good..although lots of guy wanna get hook up with her...but its the bad intentions that counts...and my results is better than her...seriously...frens are just people for u to hang out with..not for keeps forever..we always put up this faker mask and act nice to people including ur closest fren...